Panic

Maybe I’ve done something really bad, that’s why my heart beats wild. Something that I might want to commit a suicide before I got somebody else says “It’s a homicide, Grissom”. Today was a No Luck. The morning’s exodus, the afternoon’s crash, oh yea, before that, after ‘brunch’s’ education. I should say, “Oooh, maaaan!” Lastly, the evening’s arrival. Once I really thought that I could be killed, because of today. Worse, humiliation.

Ditched again. That’s ok. He had to go, and how on earth could I stop him? Go give it a try and you’ll get a trace of a footprint on your forehead. I know I really like to get in trouble, but that is not the trouble that I could risk my life for.

An hour more to go. I have a small zit on my left cheek beside my nose. It is obviously annoying. Sometimes I just hope I am 100% plastic.

Oh tummy, would you stop? The heart is more painful. And the cause is you. I am sorry the throat wouldn’t accept anything just now, because it couldn’t! It’s not her fault. Blame it on the situation. I didn’t make any decision, it’s all his.

I smell something really nasty on my left hand. I thought it would be shyt in case if you peeps think that I don’t know what you’re thinking. But frankly, I smell saliva. Ok well, zero weirdness!

Like I Effing Care

I always speak up but then regret it because I thought he wouldn’t like to have a person who he wants to make as a wife to have such conduct. I regret. I regretted. But not anymore when I know that I have had enough. When it was the last straw, I just shut up and I think I left him hanging. Or maybe he just doesn’t get it. I really meant what I said, “we are done”. Even my mom understands my displeasing moment of breaking up, but suddenly all I hear, “kesian dia”. What about him? I have the guts to say that I have moved on, because that is how I ended up with my current boyfriend. Maybe most will think that I am the bad person here. Well you know what? I just don’t give a damn what you damn suckers think. In addition to that, whoever knows from scratch, they know that I did the right thing. He changed his status but what’s up with “I love you till d end”?

He’s not a boyfriend material la, Fathy. Once he had a super hot gf pun dia boleh flirt dengan orang lain. If he breaks up with someone today, the next thing you know he is with someone else dah tomorrow. Jaga jaga je la. It’s up to you. But if anything happens to you, then I’ll puke on him.